lets talk about jobs and direction. I don’t know if you are like me but what I wanted to be when I “grew up” changed one heck of a lot.
I remember going to space camp in 4th grade because I so badly wanted to be an astronaut.
I remember wanting to be a cosmetologist, but didn’t go to cosmetology school because my dad told me I HAD to go to college first (well with the YouTube make up boom THAT was clearly a good choice)
I wanted to be an opthomologist beuase 1. you get to make doctor money 2. it’s not as gross to me as other body parts
When I was in college I wanted to go into media/journalism but wasn’t sure which.
THEN I decided I was pre-law for media law.
I took the Practice LSATs and started law school applications
BUT THEN I found what I thought was my DREAM PATH. I had been a Resident Advisor for all 3 years I was eligible. I loved it. I loved being a part of the lives of others in an impactful way. I loved responding to emergencies and learning to think on the fly. I loved being creative with programs and bulletin boards (yep, that was a thing). I found out this could be a full time job but that I had to go to grad school first.
I changed my plans, I applied to graduate schools for Higher Education or Student Affairs programs, and got into Kent State University, got the Graduate Assistantship I wanted and ended my search there. To be honest, it felt like destiny. I didn’t want to take the GREs and they weren’t required. I would get a Master’s of Education which was different than some of the other programs, and I got an assistantship that would cover my tuition that was in an office I wanted at another campus RATHER than having to do an assistantship in a part of the University I had NO interest in.
I went to grad school and enjoyed learning, enjoyed connecting with my peers, enjoyed my internships, and then I went into the field.
Each time I started a new job it didn’t click for me like it did for others. I didn’t necessarily have the same excited attitude that my colleagues had. It felt weird and off. It was a combination of where I was in my life – ie not being happy with mysef so I wasn’t translating that to my job, but also all the hours spent doing work wasn’t fulfilling me. I felt directionless and I didn’t feel like I connected with my staff like my colleagues did. (HOWEVER I know now that I did with some of my students in an impactful and meaningful way, sometimes it just takes a while for people to see it) To be honest sometimes it felt like a damn popularity contest of who was the coolest out of all of us that the students liked the best, saw the most, and had the deepest connections with. The hardest thing for me too, was coming up with projects or things to do on my own. I never fit the “conduct” person or the “study abroad person” etc. so I always got stuck with the random focus areas that I had to create on my own.
This happened everywhere I worked.
And thats fine – but to be honest my heart wasn’t into working the amount of hours and putting on the excited face that was necessary for that ALL the time. I was fine I was just meh. It wasn’t what I was my BEST at -you know what I mean?
So my last professional job in Student Affairs led me to a position in Human Resources at the same college. Let’s talk about a learning curve. Since I didn’t have the same experience as others in the office I felt totally hamstrung when people needed help. there was paperwork I couldn’t help with, and then I often didn’t help frequently enough to retain information to remember how to do DO some of the things they needed help with. My position was brand new so I had an office space away from the whole team. I had to come up with projects to do on my own. So again here I am unsure of what I’m doing trying to come up with projects or things that I THINK we might need on my own with no experience.
SO you THINK you’re doing all this great work when, well, what you’re doing is wasting your time.
To be honest, toward the end of my time in Student Affairs before I moved over to Human Resources, I thought I might want to go into health and fitness coaching or some kind of personal training because I was enjoying that SO MUCH. I started a side hustle from home and it worked out so when I was laid off from my position in HR I had something to fall back on.
The best part of it, si that all of the things I felt insecure about in previous jobs don’t apply now
As my own boss, I’m able to make content that I LIKE and not worry about approval or it sitting in a drawer. I can make my spreadsheets look how I WANT them to look and not have to worry about feedback. I choose who I work with and when.
And the best part – I dont feel like i’m competing with anyone but me
I can throw my blinders on and unfollow if I start comparing myself to someone else AND I’m getting to do the meaningful impactful kind of stuff I loved all along with the individuals I WANT to work with – not a bunch of students trying to lie to me.
The jobs I had before I’m grateful there are people in who LOVE them and feel fulfilled by them, even on their worst days. But it doesn’t do anyone any good to stay in a field they’re not in love with and that doesn’t help add to your field or the place where you are working.
The best professional favor you can ever do for yourself is
- Be honest with you
- Be honest with your bosses
they don’t want people just working as bodies in the seats – they want people who want to be there, and you’re keeping someone from that job.
Now I know that I was smart enough to have a side hustle in case the bad worst case scenario occured, which it did, to fall back on. Now going straight into entreprenuer mode has had it’s struggles. It’s hard to break the 9-5 mold and the basic grind and surfing social media when you’re working habit. It’s hard to take a hit to your income. It’s hard to pay for ads or for give aways etc. when you’re still making a part time income on full time hours
But the freedom of all of it, the creativity, it’s all worth all that other business. It’s worth it to be able to work when I want how I want to be working for less income than I was before. It definitely makes life more difficult, but it’s not stressful – it’s … I don’t know the pressure is good pressure, like a massage vs. a pimple if that makes sense in a gross way.
This life is 100% not for everyone. Some people do better with less freedom and more structure, because this life is not all about glam. It’s about giving and giving and giving, it’s about creativity, and connections, and struggle, and it’s not ever easy. There are no “real” days off – you put in at least SOME work every day, and you have to find time to disconnect from your phone. But for some of us it’s worth it.
I built this without spam or bothering others. I use a combination of my own coaching along with network marketing to build something I truly love and believe in – because entrepreneurship has no rules, it’s all about you and what you want to put into the world.