Well let’s see I’ve had a livejournal, a xanga, two different blogger accounts, so what makes this one different?
The difference with this blog, this website is that I have a purpose and a direction.
In the past my blogs were just me yammering about my day to day, trying to navigate the blogging world and the give aways, it was a lot. But since then I’ve found my voice and my message that I want to share with the world.
I plan to share my story here. I plan to share about where I came from that brought me to this point. It’s a long story, but to summarize it for now, over the years I have gone from 273 lbs to 195 lbs. I have transformed my body to have muscles and curves all through taking care of it and still enjoying pizza.
You see, I used to use food as a tool to heal. I would use it to mask or hide my pain. I would eat and eat until I was so full it hurt. I spent years letting food control me.
I got to the point where it hurt to be in my body. I couldn’t breathe, I had no energy, and I ached.
Most of all, I didn’t love myself. I hated who I was. Now listen, it wasn’t because I was overweight. I was overweight because I had such a negative feeling about who i was.
It was a horrible cycle to be honest. Our self-image is an echo of our childhood, how we started to see ourselves. It’s not to blame the people in our lives or the people who helped craft that negative self-image, because as Jen SIncero says “It’s not your fault you’re fucked up, it’s your fault if you stay fucked up.” Because I had incredible supportive parents who believed in me, but I also had some not so supportive family members who said horrible and hurtful things to me. I was sexually assaulted by a family friend, and I developed a repetitive behavior disorder in 6th grade.
None of that is anyone’s fault except the individuals who chose to make bad decisions. But I can’t let those people control my life. I had to decide that regardless of how anyone ever made me feel I was worth of change, loving myself, and taking care of myself. That it’s not up to other people to determine my worth.
It was after I had a wake up call between me and Steve that I realized where I was in life. I realized I wasn’t taking care of myself and it was effecting my marriage. I had no desire to be open to Steve. I was closed off and shutting down. I realized how horrible I felt about myself and decided to do something for ME.
When I decided that it was time to take control of my life, to make a change, I took steps to do so. Those steps changed along the way for sure, but ultimately it was the decision that I needed to take care of myself that led to this point. I took it 1 lb at a time, one day at a time.
No crazy elimination diets, no crazy, pills, just through following simple macro plans and workouts. And now I help other women do the same thing.
Here I want to share my best tips
I want to share everything I’ve learned since 2013 with you all, so I hope you keep coming back. I hope you share your stories too.
And today – with this launch, I have also launched my first ebook FOR FREE on how to dine out without stressing out. One of my biggest worries when I started on this healthy lifestyle was getting to enjoy eating out with friends and family aside from planned indulgence meals (or cheat meals lol) so I want to share what I have learned with you!
Sing up below for your free copy via email!